Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Sunday, December 10, 2006

à bientôt.

I have decided to take a break from blogging until after the New Year. I want to get away from my inner thoughts and my computer for a while. I also have a lot of things to do to prepare for the holiday. For instance, tomorrow I need to take my dad Christmas shopping. He told me that he thinks that he will screw it up, but last year he did a fantastic job all by himself. It will be his second Christmas without my mom. It is still difficult for him. It is still hard for all of us.

On Thanksgiving Day, I saw a video of my mom from Christmas Day two years ago. (My dad is in the process of converting a gigantic pile of VHS tapes to DVD format) It was just two months before we found out that she was sick with leukemia, and four months from her death at age 57. I had to run out of the room. Just seeing her pretty hands made me cry. I peeked in again, and watched her fasten my new pearl necklace, as I held my long hair out of the way. Her face was gorgeous. I remember that she smelled like cinnamon and syrup from the French toast she made for brunch. There was syrup next to the corner of her pretty mouth. My sister told her to lick if off. My sister was always telling her to do that.

I will help my dad find great gifts for his grandchildren. He will still sign the cards, Love Granddad & Grandma.

Happy Holidays, everyone!

Peace be with you.

Another Christmas Meme

1. Does Santa wrap your presents or just sit them under the tree?
Fancy paper makes gifts look more glamorous and mysterious, so I like them wrapped.

2. Do you read The Night Before Christmas on December 24th?
No, but it would be romantic to read it in bed with a lover, while all snuggled up with hot chocolate or champagne.

3. Fake, Real or Cut-It-Yourself Christmas Tree?
A modest-sized real one, so I can plant it in my backyard after New Year's Day.

4. Favorite Christmas Movie

5. Mall, Outlet or Internet?
Internet, mall, toy and video game stores

6. Stockings before or after presents?
Stockings first, so we can eat chocolates and candy, as we find fun little trinkets. My sister and I always found really yummy and girlie things in our stockings, so I try to find cool things for my children.

7. If you can have one GIFT this year what would it be?
(No world peace, no financial anything, no healing of the sick, no lottery ticket, no free car, nothing for anyone else- for YOU, something that someone can actually get you!)
I haven’t given it any thought. My husband and I are not exchanging gifts this year.

*I found this @ The Phat Lady Sings . I modified it, since some of the questions were on the previous one.

Coquettish Creator

Coquetry is the essential characteristic, and the prevalent humor of women; but they do not all practice it, because the coquetry of some is restrained by fear or by reason. ~François Duc de la Rochefoucauld, Maxims

The coquets of both sexes are self-lovers, and that is a love no other whatever can dispossess. ~John Gay, The Beggar's Opera.

The greatest miracle of love is the cure of coquetry. ~François Duc de la Rochefoucauld, Maxims

Coquetry whets the appetite; flirtation depraves it. Coquetry is the thorn that guards the rose - easily trimmed off when once plucked. Flirtation is like the slime on water-plants, making them hard to handle, and when caught, only to be cherished in slimy waters. ~Ik Marvel

1. a woman who flirts lightheartedly with men to win their admiration and affection; flirt.
2. a woman who makes teasing sexual or romantic overtures.

Main Entry:
Part of Speech:
amorous, arch, come-hither*, come-on*, coquettish, coy, dallying, enticing, flirty, libidinous, nymphomaniac, philandering, spoony*, sportive, wolfish

Main Entry:
Part of Speech:
childish, coquettish, coy, elvish, flirtatious, frolicsome, fun-loving, impish, jaunty, mischievous, playful, roguish, sportive

*I often use a thesaurus while I am writing, so I can find fun and sexy words that will spice up my story.

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Passionate Reservation

I am intensely perceptive and sensitive, even more so a few days before my period, which usually comes soon after the full moon. I usually have a little trouble sleeping a day or two prior to its arrival, as my hormones are taking a dive. It makes me have “fast brain” nights with vivid dreams.

I also spend more time making my house spotless, shiny and tidy, and become fixated on exercising, food and sex.

I have cramps. Sometimes I hate being a female.

Outwardly, I don’t appear to be an intense person. It all happens silently and secretly inside of my head. I am polite and somewhat soft spoken. Strangers wouldn’t guess that I have a fantastic imagination and wild side.

I guess that most adults have learned to play the role of propriety and decency, all the while having hot, dirty and devious thoughts.

Are most of us honest enough to share our ideas? Or are most people too shy to be themselves?

I am usually willing to tell someone exactly what I am thinking, as long as it isn’t something hurtful. I believe that we are all susceptible to strong emotions and warm sensations. I choose to feel them. Otherwise, I think that life would be boring.

Friday, December 08, 2006

Vote for Me!

I found this cute thing at Aisby's blog.

Christmas Friday Random Ten

1) A Marshmallow World – Frank Sinatra
2) Sleigh Ride – Ella Fitzgerald
3) Baby, It's Cold Outside feat Natalie Cole – James Taylor
4) Christmas Time Is Here – Diana Krall
5) All I Want For Christmas Is You – Mariah Carey
6) Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas – Luther Vandross
7) I’m Dreaming Of A White Christmas – Barry White
8) Have A Holly Jolly Christmas – Burl Ives
9) The Christmas Song – Nat King Cole
10) Santa Claus Is Coming To Town – Bruce Springsteen

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Adorably Sweet Song

Marshmallow World - Frank Sinatra

It's a marshmallow world in the winter
When the snow comes to cover the ground
It's the time for play, it's a whipped cream day
I wait for it the whole year round.

Those are marshmallow clouds being friendly
In the arms of the evergreen trees
And the sun is red like a pumpkin head
It's shining so your nose wont freeze.

The world is your snowball, see how it grows
Thats how it goes whenever it snows
The world is your snowball just for a song
Get out and roll it along

It's a yum-yummy world made for sweethearts
Take a walk with your favorite girl
It's a sugar date, what if spring is late
In winter it's a marshmallow world

Christmas Past Photographs

These are the most precious presents that God gave to me, my son and daughter, Cory and Alixandra. I stopped taking Christmas photos of them a few years ago, as they are no longer interested in starring roles on my holiday cards. Prior to these photos from three/four years ago, I didn't have a digital camera, so I don't have older photos on my laptop. They looked like little dolls as small children. I am so proud of them in every way. Our dog, Tabi passed away.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Walks of a Lifetime

I have mentioned that I love watching travel shows more than once. I devour them with my eyes, since I have seen and tasted so little of the world.

I have recently discovered a way to listen to them, too. Rudy Maxa’s interesting and educational podcasts are a click away at National Geographic.com. He closes every lesson with a short quiz. He pauses briefly between each question and then offers the answer.

Last night, Rudy Maxa read me a bedtime story about Philadelphia and Paris, while I was snuggled under my fluffy and soft blankets with my furry puppy.

Rudy’s voice took me on a walk through Barcelona early this morning, as I did a few chores. I imagined tasting tapas and churros, while I made my bed.

It is fun to break up the monotony of my day, as I dream of beautiful and exotic places--and adventurous and fortunate guys like Rudy actually visit them.

Friday, December 01, 2006

Go US Military!

Real Life Philadelphia Hero is the most interesting post that I have read this morning.

My dad has been hanging out with his military buddies all week. They come together from all over the country each December to see the Army/Navy game. The game is being held in Philadelphia again this year. They will spend the day tailgating, reminiscing and reconnecting before and after the game. There is a brotherly bond between them, as most of them went to war together and have kept in touch for 37 years. My dad and his friends served in the Army during the Vietnam War. A few of the guys were in other branches of the service. All of them were lucky enough to make it home alive--not necessarily in one piece, but alive.

I hope the Navy Officer from Philadelphia, Anthony McCloskey, who wrote Don't Judge Me will make it home safely. I'm sure that his family and friends are waiting with open arms.

I believe that most Americans are proudly anticipating our troops return, as we cheer them on from home.

Classical Friday Random Ten

1. Eroica - Beethoven
2. Claire de Lune - Debussy
3. impromptus for piano - Schubert
4. Romantic - Hanson
5. Spartacus - Khachaturian
6. Piano Concerto No. 2 in C minor, Op. 18 Adagio sostenuto - Rachmaninov
7. Suite In D Major: Air - Bach
8. Prelude Op. 28 No. 4 In E Minor - Chopin
9. Symphony No. 5: Adagietto - Mahler
10. The Firebird: Berceuse - Stravinsky

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Predatory Female

My results...

(I wish)
*I found this quiz @ Urban Jams.

Burnt Out

My best friend Kate left a haunting message on my answering machine this morning, as I was rushing to get my daughter ready for her dentist appointment. Her mom’s house, the house she grew up in, burnt down last night. Thankfully, she told me that everyone was okay.

Kate’s mentally and physically disabled older brother, Dan, set the house on fire shortly after his home health care nurse left for the day. He threw something into his bedroom trash can and started a blaze that would have probably killed him if his older brother, Fran, didn’t hear the smoke detector alarm from his downstairs apartment.

Fran had to physically pull Dan’s shirt and insist that they leave, as Dan resisted in the other direction.

I walked through what was left of their home this afternoon. It smelled charred and candles were melted to the wall. Everything was covered in soot. All of the windows had been broken by firemen, the floor was soaked, the ceiling was busted and the furniture was destroyed. The whole scene made me nauseous.

They had lots of Christmas presents stashed in closets and a brand new computer.
Now, they have nothing.

I feel like a lost a piece of my childhood, so I cannot imagine how they must feel about losing their home.

Kate’s mom stayed with her family last night. Fran stayed with his cousin’s family. Dan spent the night in the hospital for smoke inhalation. He will probably need to be placed in round the clock care, as he is a danger to himself and his family. He is no longer functional.

His illness has gradually progressed, making him socially inappropriate, and a stranger to the toilet and remembering to chew his own food. He has been diagnosed with frontal lobe dementia, which was brought on by MS. All I know is that the mind of my best friend’s handsome, blonde-haired, golden-eyed older brother, who used to bully me as a kid, and flirt with me as adult, has evaporated.

One afternoon after elementary school, I was twirling a baton in the front yard with Kate, when Dan came home from high school. Dan decided to pick me up and carry me to the empty trash can at the curb. He put me into the empty can and then proceeded to sit on the lid until I screamed and begged for him to let me out.

Dan told on us when he caught us smoking for the first time as teenagers.

I danced with Dan, who was seemingly still normal and healthy, at Kate’s wedding five years ago, while he kept an eye on my cleavage. He even asked me to go out to the parking lot with him, as our spouses watched him give me a twirl. I pretended that I didn’t hear him.

His current state makes me sad. He is only 39-years-old and he is almost completely lost.

His family is distressed. They have assisted him as much as possible, while his abilities have wasted away. He was a carpenter. He was very skilled with his hands.

He became addicted to cocaine after using various recreational drugs for several years. His family staged interventions and tried getting him into treatment. I believe that drug abuse stole most of his faculties, as well as his dignity.

I hope to be able to provide emotional support for my best friend and her family.

Wednesday, November 29, 2006


Sharon Stone uncrossed her beautiful long legs in Basic Instinct revealing the feminine shape in between. Lately, I have read that Paris Hilton, Lindsey Lohan and Britney Spears have been tempting the paparazzi to take crotch shots, none of which have turned out to be flattering. I have also heard that Pink likes to go pantiless. I have seen footage of Tara Reid pretending that her new implants fell out of her top by accident. I have heard about multiple celebrities who created their own porn. I found it amusing when they feigned shock and sadness after their home movies were released to the public, which made them all more famous and intriguing.

Sexy body parts and videos grab attention. Most people are exhibitionists and voyeurs. I don’t believe that anything that I mentioned above was exposed by accident.

Going out sans panties under a short and sexy evening dress makes me feel seductive. It turns me on to know that I’m naked, without anyone else knowing. I think it is a really hot way to make a date more exciting. I also like sneaking touches and subtle caresses under the table, while sharing a meal. Seeing a wet spot kiss the fabric of my man’s crotch adds intensity to my desire. I love glancing at the tent in his pants, knowing that he is aching for me to satisfy his want. I want him to need me.

I think that most people crave attention and want to be craved. I understand the desire to be noticed, as I have shared naked photos and showed off on my webcam in the past. The novelty of that wore off quickly. I stopped stripping myself after I realized that I didn’t care if men at large found me alluring. I realized that I was really looking for love. I wanted someone to love me, really love me, even when I was feeling neurotic and sad. I wanted someone smart, sweet and special to think that I was really adorable. I also wanted lust--lots of brilliant lust.

Sometimes people are attention whores, but I believe that people just want to be loved, which is undeniably human.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Bitch in Heat

I just fought off the temptation to get fake nails, as I was getting a manicure. I don’t think that acrylic nails are healthy or even pretty, but for some reason when I saw the white tips in the box; I considered having a French manicure glued onto my tapered digits. I kept repeating to myself, "Short and chic, short and chic. I have long pretty fingers. I don’t need that tacky plastic stuff."(In my head, not out loud.) I cut my fingernails and toenails really short last night, too short. I know that they are too short because my Swedish clogs hurt the tips of my tender toes as I walk. I went to get a pedicure and manicure this afternoon, mostly because I wanted to have the soles of my feet buffed, while I sat reading in the massage chair. (I exercise a lot and I don’t want calluses.)

I also needed some comforting after what I did to my silky mid-length hair earlier this morning. I went to the salon and got another haircut. I just got a bob two weeks ago, which really didn't compliment my squarish jaw line, so I had another inch taken off and added some choppy long layers, which looks much better on me. It is shorter than I have ever had it in my life. (Jaw length) It makes my neck seem longer.

I need to start Christmas shopping now that I feel clipped and polished. I am as well groomed my toy poodle, Josie-Eve. I gave her a French name--and now I feel as chic as une femme française, which tempted me to go buy long and skinny cigarettes that will go stale, since I don’t smoke.

I had a glass of Beaujolais with a petite wedge of Camembert and a handful of cashews for lunch.

Lokshen Pudding (Kugel)

Noodle pudding is just as comforting as rice pudding. Who doesn't like feeling all warm and fuzzy inside, especially now that it is getting cold outside? I am sharing Nigella Lawson's recipe, since I think she is gorgeous and yummy. It only uses a few simple ingredients. I like to add cinnamon and a little bit of freshly grated nutmeg to mine, otherwise it is a bit bland. I love cinnamon and even add a sprinkle or two to my coffee grounds before I brew a pot.

I like to serve Kugel the same way that I serve Julgrot.
*I made sure that my sister got the almond in her pudding cup two years ago. Her wedding was on October 14, 2006. ;-)

Sunday, November 26, 2006

In the Spirit of Christmas

Here is a Christmas meme...

1. Egg Nog or Hot Chocolate?
Hot chocolate w/marshmallows made with warm milk.

2. Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree?
Beautifully wrapped

3. Colored lights on tree/house or white?
White snowflakes and icicles, wreaths and red or burgundy bows

4. Do you hang mistletoe?
Yes, I love having an extra excuse to kiss everyone!

5. When do you put your decorations up?
The weekend after Thanksgiving

6. What is your favorite holiday dish (excluding dessert)?
Pot Roast

7. Favorite Holiday memory as a child:
I have so many, but I guess I was about eight-years-old when got an enormous Barbie estate that took up my entire pink playroom. It took my parents a long time to build that dollhouse--and I adored it! I was also really excited about my first 10-speed bike at age 10, bubblegum pink.

8. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa?
In second grade, a blonde boy, Brian the big mouth, blurted, “Santa is fake”, while I was swinging. He followed that statement by telling the first dirty joke that I had ever heard. (Punchline was, Can I put my finger in your belly button?--Ah, that’s not my finger.)

9. Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve?
Only if we get together with family members or friends that we won’t see on Christmas day

10. How do you decorate your Christmas tree?
White lights, silver balls, white garland, red or burgundy bows and a pretty star on top.

11. Snow! Love it or Dread it?
I love it! Snow is romantic, beautiful and fun.

12. Can you ice skate?

13. Do you remember your favorite gift?
My favorite gifts were the watercolor portraits and pictures that my Swedish grandmother placed on top of each wrapped toy. She was a talented artist and the paintings were personal and pretty. I still have some of them.

14. What’s the most important thing about the holidays for you?
Seeing my children’s eyes light up when they discover the heap of gifts under the tree on Christmas morning.

15. What is your favorite Holiday Dessert?
My grandmother’s snickerdoodle cookies and Julgrot

16. What is your favorite holiday tradition?
Sharing the day with family, while we listen to Christmas music all day and open gifts and play, eat, drink and be merry

17. What tops your tree?
A sparkly crystal and silver star

18. Which do you prefer giving or receiving?
Both, but watching my kids open gifts is definitely the highlight of my day.

19. What is your favorite Christmas Song?
Chestnuts Roasting on an Open Fire

20. Candy Canes! Yuck or Yum?
I usually eat one peppermint candy cane on Christmas morning. I love the smell of peppermint scented body scrub. It makes me smell like yummy candy.

*Give your answers on your blog or Santa will leave coal in your stocking. ;-)

Friday, November 24, 2006

The Escape Clause

I made this statement last year and I will repeat it today, I don't start my Christmas shopping Friday after Thanksgiving. I spend it with my kids. I think that I will take them to see The Santa Clause 3 this afternoon. I'll start my shopping on Monday. Do you like going out on this busy shopping day?

Crush - Friday Random Ten

1. Crush – Dave Matthews Band
2. Love at First Sight – Kylie Minogue
3. I Love You – Sarah McLachlan
4. I Wanna Be Loved By You – Marilyn Monroe
5. Love At First Sight – Blue
6. Crush – Lila McCan
7. Love At First Sight – Styx
8. Crush – Useless I.D
9. Love At First Sight – Michael Bublé
10. Break Me – Jewel

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Cranberry Chutney

My sister and I made this cranberry chutney for our dad, after asking him if he had any requests other than apple pie for Thanksgiving. He replied, "The cranberry stuff that your mom used to make." I don’t like cranberry jelly or sauce, but this stuff is kind of yummy on turkey and it makes the kitchen smell delicious.
1 orange, peeled, tough membrane removed, chopped
1/4 cup orange juice
1 package (12 ounces) fresh cranberries
1 3/4 cups sugar
1 large Golden Delicious apple, peeled, cored, chopped
1/2 cup golden raisins
1/4 cup chopped pecans and walnuts
1 tablespoon apple cider vinegar
1/2 teaspoon ground ginger
1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon

Combine all ingredients in a large saucepan; bring to a boil. Reduce heat; simmer, stirring occasionally, for 5 to 8 minutes, or until cranberries are bursting. Chill until serving time.
Makes about about 4 cups of chutney.

Philadelphia's Thanksgiving Day Parade

It is supposed to rain tomorrow, so I’ll watch the Philadelphia Thanksgiving Parade on TV with my kids. I like to watch some of the NYC parade, too.

I am going to my sister’s house in a little while, so we can prepare for Thanksgiving. We did our grocery shopping yesterday. We are baking pies and making cranberry chutney today.

I hope that everyone enjoys feasting with family and friends tomorrow. Happy Thanksgiving!

Monday, November 20, 2006

Something Pretty for Me

They are my favorite colors--and they even came with a romantic love note!

Left Begging

For those of you who read all of my hype, including a fictional fantasy, about Phil Roy in the past couple of weeks, I mentioned that he would be on CBS "Sunday Morning" yesterday. Unfortunately, he got bumped by 90 minutes of somewhat boring tales about food. The most snoring story of the morning was about aprons. I think aprons are cute, but I don't want to watch a whole bit on them. A silly lady even wrote an entire book about them. I was hungry for Phil, so I fast forwarded my TiVo all the way to the end of the show. I felt like a puppy that missed out on her favorite treat.

Phil combines food and music, which are two of life’s most sensational things. Hopefully, he will air at a later date. I'm sure that all of Phil's family, friends and fans feel the same way. We will continue to hope for a little taste of someone especially talented and tempting—on TV.

Phil's dog, Travis (left)
*Here is the online version from CBS News Online, which is like licking frozen yogurt instead of ice cream.

*Phil is just as cute as Emeril Legasse and the Swedish Chef.

*Here is a visual presentation of his "Not Leaving Home Tour."

Sunday, November 19, 2006

Hello City

This morning, we took our daughter on a 30 minute train ride to the Market East Terminal. We walked through The Gallery and out into the street. We walked two blocks and entered Philadelphia’s Chinatown. It was smaller than my daughter expected. We took her shopping at the Hello Kitty store, which tickled her pink. We also stopped at a pastry shop. The “pastries” tasted strange. I thought that they were yucky.

After we covered Chinatown, we continued walking toward Center City. We stopped to check out the Reading Terminal Market, and then continued on to shoot some photos of landmark buildings with interesting architecture. Then we walked into the Historic District and took a 30 minute horse carriage ride, which was educational and fun. It was the highlight of our daughter’s day. She chose the white horse. His name was Noodle. He had a braid on his rear-end, which made my daughter smile.

We decided to catch the train home after we spent four hours perusing around downtown. My husband immediately crashed on the sofa after we walked in the front door. I am downloading photos, while he naps. However, my camera battery ran out after ¼ of our trip. My father, a fantastic professional photographer, was not impressed by that news.

I loved watching my daughter’s pretty face light up as she took in the city sights. I asked her if she liked her first train ride and she shouted an enthusiastic, “Yes!”

Saturday, November 18, 2006

An Urban Evening

Last night, my teenage son invited me to go to a hardcore concert with him and three of his friends. We took a 35 minute train ride to Philadelphia and talked, joked and laughed the entire time. I talked about hair dye with his pretty girlfriend. The boys discussed their plans to mosh as much as possible.

We got off at the 30th Street Station, and walked to 21st and Chestnut where we found the concert venue. My son entered with his friends -- and I continued walking toward 18th and Walnut with my husband. Once we arrived in Rittenhouse Square, we chose the Devon Seafood Grill for dinner. Afterwards, we walked around and admired dogs and their walkers. As we approached Broad Street, we encountered what seemed to be a Civil War parade. The small army and their horses were briefly amusing.

I was wearing four inch heels, so after an hour of walking we decided to take a cab to Old City to do some shopping and people watching. It was a pleasant clear and cool evening. Next time I go downtown, I think I will have to wear something a little more practical for walking. My feet are snuggled in UGG slippers today.

How many teenagers invite their mom to hang out with them? My son has even told me that he would like to take me to school with him someday. My son is a likable, funny character. He is bright, charming and cool enough to get away with teasing his teachers. I think he wants me to see his good rapport with other students and teachers. However, I would not even consider asking the school to let me tag along as his parental unit for a day. I’m not sure whey he would either. He is a piece of work.

I love that he has friends from a variety of ethnic and economic backgrounds. He makes plans with them to see movies and concerts, etc. He also has remained close to the boys who he grew up with in our neighborhood. I am happy that he seems to really enjoy life. He embraces new experiences with confidence and excitement. Being with him is refreshing. I am so lucky, overjoyed in fact, that he is part of me/my life.

He crashed at his friend’s place after the concert. He called me first thing this morning from his cell phone, while he was waiting in a line of cars filled with students on their way to do community service at a church in Philadelphia. They had planned to help build homes for Habitat for Humanity, but the school changed plans, as there were too many volunteers. The school requires that all students do twenty hours of community service per school year, which I think is fantastic.

My son reported that he got punched in the face at the concert. He assured me that it was an accident that occurred during frenzied dancing. He’s okay—and he told me that he loved me. I’ll see him for dinner.

We promised our daughter that we will take her on a train ride tomorrow.

Friday, November 17, 2006

Global Orgasm Day...

...is on December 22, 2006. I learned about this day of shared climaxing at Philly Future.
Oh, Oh, Yes!

Spank Me Very Much!

Jim Carrey is wacky, but he is also funny and handsome, which is a fantastic and very attractive combination. I am thinking about him because my daughter recently brought her copy of How the Grinch Stole Christmas out of her movie cabinet. It is hard to believe that the holiday season is already here.

When I began watching Jim as the Grinch I began thinking about all of the wildly fun characters that he has played. He is hot fantasy fuel! I’m sure that my daughter’s sweet, young mind was in a more innocent place.

I am looking forward to taking my kids to see the holiday lights in Rittenhouse Square on Friday, November 24 at 5:00 PM.

Wind Me Up - Friday Random Ten

1. Make You Feel My Love – Bob Dylan
2. Wind it Up – Gwen Stephani
3. Rendezvous – Bruce Springsteen
4. Le Disko – Shiny Toy Guns
5. Bones – The Killers
6. Love Me or Hate Me – Lady Sovereign
7. Tell Me – Diddy feat. Christina Aguilera
8. Dangerous – Ying Yang Twins feat. Wyclef Jean
9. Suddenly I See – KT Tunstall
10. WAMP WAMP – Clipse

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Don't you want it now?

"Where passions rule desires dared to be dreamt."

SEX Intro:
"This book is about sex. Sex is not love. Love is not sex. But the best of both worlds is created when they come together. You can love God, you can love the planet, you can love the human race and you can love all things, but the best way for human beings to show love is to love one another. It's the way we spread love through the universe: one to one. Love is something we make. Pass it on.

-Madonna on her Sex book, which I have never seen. I'm curious about it. I think that most people are intrigued by lust and sensuality--and are into mutual pleasure, but at the same time are somewhat uptight about sharing fantasies and nudity. I admire Madonna's boldness, but I think that some men might be intimidated by women who are honest about their interest in erotica.

Any thoughts? Thrust em at me. ;-)

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Embarrassing High School Senior Prom Photos (1990)

*Top photo, Lisa, Denise and Diane my pretty, big-haired pals. Lisa, my friend since fourth grade. Denise and Diane were girls I met in homeroom in 7th grade. We had "H" last names and remained attached until we graduated.
*Second photo is of Rae and me. Best friends in high school. We slept like spoons, laid out in bikinis after school and smoked lots of cigarettes. (I quit years ago.)
We all had ungroomed eyebrows, gigantic hair and teeth that were fixed with braces.
I was slightly chubby and had recently given birth to my son. Fortunately, I still graduated.

*These are table shots from my prom. I'm the proud idiot in the center standing beside my handsome baby daddy/future husband. I was 17, he was 22. My make-up was yucky. I wore lots of black eyeliner under my eyes and no lip liner! We got these pictures because my dad's company photographed the prom.


Today was a mommy and son day. I just got home from Center City Philadelphia with my little/big buddy. It is about a ten mile trip from our house to the heart of brotherly love town, when we drive straight down Broad Street. I am glad that we made it home in one piece. My son drove, both ways. It was the first time that I let him drive into the city, since he got his permit.

This morning was a little disappointing, as I took him for his driver's license test, which he failed for palming the wheel during parallel parking. He’ll try again in seven days. I’m a little relieved that my baby won’t have the freedom to drive without me in the car beside him--yet. I’m not sure I’m ready for all of the adventures he may decide to take with his friends without my knowledge. He is a good driver, but I explained that there are a whole lot of reckless ones to watch out for.

The driver’s test guy was handsome. He was obvious about finding me attractive—I wasn’t. He had a surprised look on his face when I acknowledged that I was the “parent”. I get a lot of curious looks in that regard. I apparently don’t look quite old enough to be the mother of a child who happens to be 6’ 3” and 213 pounds. I am glad about that, but I don’t like that my son grew for sixteen years in what seemed like the blink of an eye.

When I became a young mother, I did the math in my head…when I am 33, my son will be old enough to drive—and if he becomes a parent when he is 17, as I did, then I will be an absurdly young grandmother! I have encouraged him to wait until he has graduated from college, has a well-established career and is ready to settle down and have a family. I felt like this day would never get here and I can’t even imagine becoming a g-mom.

I want him to have the whole college experience, and have time to travel and get to know himself and the world before he dedicates his life to loving and rearing little reproductions. I wound up going to a community college for nursing instead of to a campus apartment with my best friends.

As we circled around the city, we discussed his college choices and majors. He is currently considering computers, teaching or culinary school, although he isn’t close to making a decision. I told him to do whatever he feels most passionate about and not to pick something just because a friend is doing it. He is currently on the honor roll for the first time since 6th grade, so I am super proud of him. He is trying his best to make his records look good for colleges this year, since he is a junior.

Life seems so surreal sometimes, like it did while riding down busy city streets dodging pedestrians, cabs, buses and wild drivers. I laid a comforting hand on my good-looking son’s manly thigh. I have loved being his mom every single minute since the day he was born. I feel the same way about my gorgeous ten-year-old daughter.

Monday, November 13, 2006

Translucent Groupie

I weighed myself this morning, and learned that I have lost four pounds in the last two days. This diet works! I don’t know how much I have lost in the past 11 days, since I didn’t weigh myself when I started. However, I do feel leaner. At this rate, I’ll be looking my sexiest very soon. I feel healthier since I’m eating lots of fresh produce, taking a daily vitamin and drinking lots of water. I’ve never been on a diet before, so self discipline regarding food was never part of my life. I hate it because I love to cook--and I love to eat even more! I even decided to give up watching the Food Network, since I can’t try any new recipes that aren’t on the South Beach plan.

Early this morning, I spent a few minutes with my son on the sofa watching the Three Stooges. If you have never seen Curly do the Rumba, I highly recommend it. I laughed pretty hard between sips of my coffee. The Stooges are ridiculously entertaining, which is why I TiVo it for my son. It was a great break from cleaning up after pets and children all morning.

I also TiVo The View, but I usually only watch the hot topics portion of the show. Lately, Rosie O’Donnell has been gushing about her adoration of Barbra Streisand. She is completely obsessed with her in a way that is over-the-top. She seems to develop pretty wild crushes on other celebrities (Tom Cruise) and is not shy about her feelings. Her honesty is admirable and sweet in a way, but I don’t understand her level of intensity or the reason why she feels the need to see every single Barbra concert. I have never been that excited or addicted to anyone or anything.

Recently, I have discovered that maybe I am capable of being a stupid groupie. I have been infatuated with Phil Roy for a few weeks. However, I wouldn’t see multiple concerts or collect memorabilia or photos. I wonder why he likes the word Octopus. I need to stop listening to his music for a while. I don’t like feeling so syrupy over someone who is a stranger. I become mesmerized while watching his mouth and his mannerisms. Something about him has enraptured me, which brings this song to mind...

Fever Lyrics
Peggy Lee

Never know how much I love you, you never know how much I care
When you put your arms around me, I get a feeling that I just can't bear
You give me fever, when you kiss me, fever when you hold me tight
Fever in the morning, fever all through the night.

Bless my soul I love you, take this heart away
Take these arms I never use them
And just believe what my lips have to say
You give me fever, when you kiss me, fever when you hold me tight
Fever in the morning, fever all through the night

Listen to me baby, hear every word I say
No one can love you the way I do
Because they don't know how to love you my way
You give me fever, when you kiss me, fever when you hold me tight
Fever in the morning, fever all through the night

The sun lights up the daytime, the moon lights up at night
My eyes light up when you call my name,
Because I know you're gonna treat me right
You give me fever, when you kiss me, fever when you hold me tight
Fever in the morning, fever all through the night.
You give me fever, you give me fever, oh yeah,
Fever all through the night

*For the next few weeks, I am going to keep carbs and Phil’s music out of my body and mind, so I can start to feel like me again.